Name: Jeff Eshbach
Birthdate: August 26, 1982
Zodiac: Virgo, Year of the Dog
Occupation: Student as of now, but hopefully an accountant and eventually owner of an Anime store.
Where's the Humor?:
Quote: Carrie: I LESS THAN THREE YOU! (Disclaimer: Invented by Danielle... but I never heard it from her.)
Thought: I hope I get to ride a moose someday.
The Current:
Song: Love Hina - Yakusoku
DVD: Roswell Season 1 Disc 3
Anime: None.
Coming Attractions: (hopefully)
Hoping to get some image links up for webpages. Probably Chibi characters or just Anime favs for each person. Who knows.
Where are You Going?
Blogs:
My Archives
Carrie-Chan's Blog
Jen-Chan's Blog
Ellie-Chan's Blog
Josh-Kun's Blog
Amy's Live Journal
Anime:
Ellie's Escaflowne Site
Carrie's Various Anime Page
Dragid.com
Fun & Games:
Home Star Runner!
Addicting Games for All
Ill Will Press
Flash Movies and Such
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Saturday, March 13, 2004 03:20 a.m.
Okay, so tonight I got a journal so this very well may be the last post on this page. I know some people like reading this to see what I'm up to... but it doesn't allow me to write down my deeper feelings and all and work stuff out like I need to sometimes. So yeah... I might shy away from this for a while now. I'll still try to make posts every so often though.
In other news, I watched the most emotional episode of Buffy tonight. The one where Joyce (Buffy's mom) dies. Oh my god... just so many parts in that episode had my either moist eyed or actually crying. It was not cool. Now I'm all post-crying blahish. Anyways, I'm gonna go and try to get out of this funk.
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Thursday, March 11, 2004 04:46 p.m.
Blah, having a car is so over-rated sometimes. Especially when you have to get it repaired. Here I thought my battery had just died but it turns out that my starter went so now it's gonna cost me around 250 bucks when all is said and done to get it fixed. >.< Damn vehicles. Oh well... at least I have the money right now and I have more coming within a week or so and then I should be getting my tax return in about 3 weeks. Thank god. But I'll probably end up using most of that to pay my mom back for loans and such that I still owe her. Oh well.. I guess these are the things you have to worry about when you get older. I can't wait until we make our own island... no worries about anything and everything will be within walking distance. Haha.
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Tuesday, March 9, 2004 03:14 p.m.
Your Existing Situation
Having difficulty in making progress. Despite the attempt to conceal impulsiveness, his activities lead to problems and uncertainties, making him tense and irritable.
Your Stress Sources
Sensitive, and susceptible to gentleness and delicacy of feeling, with a desire to blend into some sort of mystic fusion of erotic harmony. However, this desire remains unsatisfied due to the lack of a suitable partner or adverse conditions, and he keeps a strict and watchful control on his emotional relationships as he needs to know precisely where he stands. Is fastidious, esthetic, and has a cultured taste which allows him to form and express his own taste and judgment, especially in the fields of art and artistic creativity. Strives to ally with others who can assist him in his intellectual or artistic growth.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels that he is burdened with more than his fair share of problems. However, he sticks to his goals and tries to overcome his difficulties by being flexible and accommodating. Very exacting in the standards he applies to his choice of a partner and seeking a rather unrealistic perfection in his sex life.
Your Desired Objective
Urgently in need of rest, relaxation, peace, and affectionate understanding. Feels he has been treated with a lack of consideration and is upset and agitated as a result. Regards his situation as intolerable as long as his requirements are not complied with.
Your Actual Problem
Needs to protect himself against his tendency to be too trusting, as he finds it is liable to be misunderstood or exploited by others. Is therefore seeking a relationship providing peaceful and understanding intimacy, and in which each knows exactly where the other stands.
Your Actual Problem #2
Wants to be valued and respected, and seeks this from a close and peaceful association of mutual esteem.
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Thursday, March 4, 2004 06:14 p.m.
Oh God... what a past week and a half or so. Stress was a definate highlight. And the fact that I wasn't even in my room for most of the weekend or the beginning of this week. But I still managed to have some fun. I've been playing DDR a lot more and it's an amazingly effective stress reliever. After playing a few songs you're too exhausted to be stressed out. Anyways, I'll try to update despite stress from now on. Sorry that you missed so much but if I ranted on here it would take up way too much space.
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Tuesday, February 24, 2004 11:18 p.m.
Man has it been a rough past two days. There are times when I wish I could just really say "screw it" and not care anymore. Why is it that I just can't be an asshole? Nope.. have to be the "good guy" all the time. Oy... my head. Anyways, at least I'm alive. Just need sleep... and lots of it.
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Monday, February 23, 2004 07:54 p.m.
It's creepy how close these things can get.
You're Mrs. Dalloway!
by Virginia Woolf
Your life seems utterly bland and normal to the casual observer, but
inside you are churning with a million tensions and worries. The company you surround
yourself with may be shallow, but their effects upon your reality are tremendously deep.
To stay above water, you must try to act like nothing's wrong, but you know that the
truth is catching up with you. You're not crazy, you're just a little unwell. But no
doctor can help you now.
Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
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Monday, February 23, 2004 03:20 p.m.
Wow... so this weekend was really actually a lot of fun. I didn't get as much work done as I had hoped but... I guess that happens sometimes. Just have to do the rest of it tonight after my final class. Really all I have to do is go over my math review sheet and answers the problems and stuff. So that shouldn't be that hard. But anyways, here's the run down of the weekend.
Friday wasn't so bad. My music class was just really stupid and made me feel like we were stuck in the 5th grade or something. But I don't even wanna talk about that. Friday night then I just let myself burn out and watched a lot of Roswell. Then I got an IM from a friend of mine around 11ish asking if I could drive her to Wilkes-Barre to pick up her boyfriend and then drive them back. Of course we all no I can't say no to friends so I ended up driving her up there. Of course this wasn't until about 1 in the morning and then I didn't get back until about 5... or to bed until 6. That was my Friday.
Saturday I woke up around 3:45 in the afternoon, did some dishes, took out the trash, and then went to this dinner thing that my friends were having. It was a lot of fun. Had a great dinner which was absolutely delicious and then hung out and socialized for the rest of the night. I ended up crashing up there and actually got to cuddle a bit with Jackie and Jarod. Ya know... had to share Jackie since Jarod is her boyfriend. Haha.
Sunday... well... was lazy. I sat around, did some work and watched more Roswell. Then we had our first presentation for the Wellness Center's Safe Spring Break Week. It wasn't too bad. It went off really well but we only had a few people show up. That's the problem with bad advertising and having a program on a Sunday though. Hopefully we'll have better turn outs for the rest of the week. One can always hope. Anyways, that's it... guess I should go do something.
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Friday, February 20, 2004 09:31 p.m.
I apologize ahead of time. This post isn't really an update on my life so much as a way to put my thoughts into words for myself...
What am I supposed to do? How do you tell someone how you feel about them without putting something else in jeapordy? Is it worth it to risk a good thing for what could be a great thing? What if what you think could be great turns out to be more painful then ignoring what your heart tells you to do? I don't know where I'm going with this. I just need to get it out of my system... and this is the only place I can completely vent my feelings without making myself vulnerable. I know it's only a select few who know about this page, and I know that I trust those people to only be concerned about my well being, and that they wouldn't persist in something unless I really wanted to talk about it with them. For that I'm thankful. I know I'm luckier than some, but the fact that I'm tempted to test that luck and try to have even more... maybe it makes me greedy. Even so... I can't help wondering "what if". Maybe some questions are better left unasked. If there is one thing I fear more than anything else, it's losing my friends.
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Thursday, February 19, 2004 10:40 p.m.
You ever have one of those days that just kinda sucks and you can't figure out why? Yeah... that's today. As soon as I woke up I knew that it was gonna be a bad day. Pre-calculus just seemed to drag by super slow and Psychology wasn't much better. Then I had a test today in World History 2 and I'm really not sure how I did. I think I did well... but there were a few questions where it basically came down to guessing. Oh well... I guess I'll see. Then tonight I went out to dinner with my roommate and a friend and then just completely burned out afterwards. I feel like I just want to go to bed but I'm not tired. I know what I want to do... but I can't. And that really sucks cause I think if I could get that off my mind I would feel a lot more at ease. I don't know. Thinking about it... I wonder if it would just give me more to worry about. Well.. I guess I'm gonna go play around online.
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Wednesday, February 18, 2004 10:17 p.m.
Well... today was very unproductive. All I really did was go to Intro to Music and do my wash. Then again all we do in Economics is go over notes from the book and I can do that on my own in my room without having to get up at 8 in the morning every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Pretty much the same thing for Management Accounting except we go over homework and stuff and there was no homework due today so all we would have done was review the stuff from before more in depth. But yeah... I also went to Wal*Mart and got the Roswell Season 1 DVD boxset. I'm happy about that because I just love this show. Ah.. Katherine Heigel... she's sexy. Haha. Anyways, now I'm gonna like... go have a soda and watch some more Roswell and then go to bed. I really don't want to go to Calculus tomorrow. -__-
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004 11:41 p.m.
So yeah, I'm working on getting my webpage back up to par. As you can see... it's pretty plain right now. But who knows, maybe I'll actually keep it updated and all... and maybe it will eventually look cool. But don't hold your breath. I tend to be unreliable with my webpage. Sorry. But on a good note... um... uh... *scratches head* um... *cough*
My classes are going well. Kinda. I'm pulling a high C in Psychology, a B in Economics and Music and World History, and an A in Management Accounting. As for Pre-Calc... I don't really know. I'll have to get back to you on that. But my prof for calc is really pissing me off. She doesn't test us all to the same standards and she is just a horrible teacher. We're in college and she stills wants to check our notebooks. I thought we got out of that in grade school. >.< Oh well... maybe I'll get lucky and she'll get fired... or die.... but painlessly and in her sleep.
Anyways, I'm gonna go watch TV and hang with a friend. And talk to Carrie. She's been so good to me recently. Pretty much always being there for me when I need to get my mind off something. Thanks Carrie... you're the bestest. ^_^
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